I just Wanted to Write about my Asian Massage Girlfriends

I just wanted to write today, to any one who might be listening.

My friends these days are asian massage parlor workers.I'm half asian, so I am a novelty to them. I look like them, but don't understand them and I don't act the way they expect me to act. Since they are here in a foreign land, after they have been here a month or so I am like a missing link to them. They want to learn from me, and they see me as what they might become if they learn to understand this American culture. I even had one late bloomer 19 year old Chinese girl grab my under wear and look at my pussy today. She wanted to see what mine looked like, as if she expected it to be different from hers. Whatever.

One very big barrier to them becoming me has always been obvious, but today we put it into words. One of the girls has been having sex with an American customer on a regular basis for a few weeks now. We all know it's going on. Harvey's smitten with her, and he visits a few times per week. He acts like a little boy in love, even though it's obvious he only allows those feelings to exist inside our little massage parlor. I'm sure he has a wife and grown kids in his "real life". But once Harvey enters through our pearly gates, he's hungry for some Chinese pussy named Sarah, and Sarah is happy to receive his attention.

What Sarah put into words today is WHY she is so happy to have him interested in her. As she puts it, she's no good. Shes "not good... no good". The Chinese she uses means dirty, or ugly, or maybe filthy or garbage. She views herself as unwanted trash, and that is why she likes the massage parlor world. In here, she is accepted as a person. Outside, as she sees herself reflected in the eyes of others, she is worthless and dirty. Now she has a man who looks normal and respectable, interested in kissing her. That's right, because he looks like a real respectable person, and he is willing to put his mouth on her, and his thing inside her, she feels cleaner. She feels "as good as other girl". We also learned today that this customer has been riding her bareback since the third visit to see her. That means he wants sex with no condom, which she delivers. She revealed that his interest in no-condom sex with her proves that she is clean. He wanted her, and he chooses her, and he isn't afraid that she is dirty and ugly and garbage.

Now I know this guy is a stupid dickhead and the two of them have probably got the filthiest private parts in the state, but think about how she really feels. Her world has so beaten her down that she is shit, so when a guy who claims to be "regular" is willing to take a risk on her, that makes her feel valued. What a sick situation. We talked about it today. The big difference between US (meaning you and me... people living in this North American society) and them (the Asian whores coming to work here after having worked as whores in Asia) is that WE don't know our place in society. We are scum.. you and me, because we are filthy whores. You buy sex from whores, and I sell my body for money to trash like you. That makes us both dirt. The rest of the world knows this. They treat their garbage like garbage. In Korea, whores are whores and not worthy or recognition by society except as dirty whores. But here, we treat people like they are equal. An ex-whore can get a job and people will actually help her try and get along. Not so in Korea or China, where a whore is a whore for life and even a child of a whore has no choice but be a whore.

In our society I'm a filthy whore but I dress up well. When I go out into the world you don't know I am anything other than the beautiful International co-ed I look like. And neither do I. I know I am just as good as you and everybody else. In fact, because I am articulate and Asian, you people think I'm smarter than I really am. If a woman dared to question me on the street, or suggest I was a whore, I'd chew her out and let her know she had no place talking trash to me like that. My asian friends laugh at that idea. That I, a massage parlor whore, would go to town and stand up for myself - that's unimaginable to them.

Funny that the source of my confidence is my experience. I actually know for fact how much of a shithead everyone out there really is. I know that the pious bitch housewife who storms into the massage parlor looking for the hussy who stole her husband is actually a dumbitch who sucked ten or 20 guys in the back seat of cars before she discovered the one she would marry. I know she took it in the ass from 3 or 4 of those, hoping to give them what they can't easily get, in order to hold on to one of them as a husband. I know the local minister visits with his bag of leather toys once a month, and I know the local police chief has a foot fetish. He likes the smell of man juice on leather... he gets off on it. When he's not busting massage girls for offering hand job happy endings, he's paying girls to let him ejaculate into their shoes so he can lick them clean.

These asian massage girls apparently believe that the mayor is an honest and dedicated public servant. They apparently believe that the former mayor, in the news because he is married 51 years to one woman, never "strayed". They don't know about the 32 years of outcall provided by my former boss, which included a few years of personal service to the mighty mayor, who happened to like being tied up. What these girls are is ignorant, more than any thing else.

After a year or so working in the massage parlor they may have gained some self confidence, from learning how the world really is under those carefully coordinated outer clothes. They will have gained insight into society by sticking needles through the foreskin of the town plumber (he brings his own tools and is happy to instruct on sterile procedures), by repeatedly face-slapping the local attorney until he creams his pants (while wearing an apron like his mommy used to wear), or by near smothering the local priest with a pussy-over-nose and mouth head squeezing thigh-lock until he either passes out or comes (he's done both, many times, and I am still unable to predict which way it will go on any given day. One time we took bets. I lost).

But by the time my ignorant asian sisters learn about this crunk society we live in, and regain their self respect (go figure that out), they'll probably be sick with disease and worn out from the physical abuse. Because assholes like Harvey are as stupid as they are. Harvey thinks that because she is only his dream girl inside the massage parlor, any sexual diseases he picks up or drops off will only exist inside the massage parlor. Boy will his world be rocked some day. And hers.

So I just wanted to write. Let me know you're reading by leaving a comment. It's the least you can do to help me believe anyone is reading. And you guys please do me a favor. The next time you deposit bodily fluids inside the private room of your favorite massage parlor, leave an extra $50 in your tip. Consider it a bonus for assuming you're actually a decent person, and for cleaning up your emissions without making a federal case of it. I bet you'll feel better for having done something nice, for someone who could use it.

Comments

[Hobbyist]

You're right, Marvin. For me, what goes on in MPs is potentially the most honest interaction possible between a man and a woman. This is my experience anyway, as I've never been happy in love. I truly respect all those girls for what they do.

I think it's great that you're able to stay friends, and even lovers, with your Chinese girl. Asians tends to feel that we westerners ask too much from life and it's probably true. We can really screw up something good by trying to make it better. Be grateful for what you have.

On undue jealousy, when I started going to MPs, I'd sometimes see men drop their girls off at work (I go at opening time, as I want them "fresh"), and wonder how the guys could "take it". Did they feel like pimps? Didn't it eat them up inside?
Since then, I've seen a provider outside, to the point that the line became a little blurred. I know SHE got a bit jealous! And had she needed a ride, I would have taken her to work and felt a little weird about it myself. But it's just a job they have, as we know.
If you want to take a girl out of it (and I'm sure a lot of them hope for that), you'd better be prepared to compensate for her loss of income...

The way I look at it now is that those are girlfriends for rent. I know I have to "return" them and I'm OK with it, because I couldn't do the marriage thing anyway. One young Korean chick asked me once if I had a GF and was surprised when I told her that SHE was, for the time that I spent with her. "I'm your... girlfriend?", her expression was too funny!

Thanks for your comment and don't worry about posting too much: Missy needs to know that we're reading and she's not wasting her time.

[Marvin]

Hi Hobbyist,
You may be right about MP and Illusions, but I still find many of these women more honest than the so called "nice girls" we may meet on the street. I was married for a very long time, and since my divorce a little more than 30 months ago, I have enjoyed going to MP's, and have made many friends with the mama-sans. They even let me watch TV with the girls when they are not working, and often let me go for more than an hour with the girls if not busy (always go in the afternoon). I speak a little Chinese as I spent 18 months in Taiwan when a young man, and traveled to the far east on business for over ten years. I love Chinese women, the way they taste, look, and almost every thing about them. In my previous post, I wrote that I had made a bad mistake, I had fallen in Love with one of them. I could not take her going back to work (she needs the money), and I had said good-bye to her. We have since made up (I am no longer her boy-friend, just her good-friend and lover). I have always had many girl friends both MP girls and non-MP girls, but for a while I stopped seeing them because of my feelings for this lady. She never asked me to do this, but now I have sex with many different women, and am no longer jealous of her customers (that is all they are) They may rent her body for an hour, but that is all they ever get from her. Our relationship is better than ever, so maybe I am a fool, but if so, my eyes are wide-open. And our sex is the best I have ever had. I have deep feelings for her, and missed her very much when I stopped seeing her. The only person I hurt doing this time was me (and I think her a little). keep posting, you sound like a very interesting guy. Sorry for the length of my post.

[Hobbyist]

Yeah, that really sucks, Marvin... You knew it was stupid and still did it - welcome to the human race, brother.

What goes on in an MP, or even outside if you see a provider, is an ILLUSION. Sometimes the girl gets confused too, like an actress who believes in the scene a little too much. But she's selling fantasy.
I've consistently turned down freebies and discounts (although flattered by the offers), precisely so that it would be clear in my (and their) mind(s) that what happened was a TRANSACTION. We can make this as (dangerously) close to the real thing as possible (GFE) for pleasure, but it's still business...

I think you can find love with a provider, but the odds are overwhelmingly against you. This blog illustrates it very well in several posts.

Man to man: quit seeing the girl completely, never look back, and monger as much as possible. It'll pass and you know it.
I wonder what Missy would say, from her perspective.

[MARVIN]

WHAT CITY DO YOU WORK OR LIVE IN? I LIVE NEAR LAS VEGAS, AND HAVE BEEN SEEING A MASSAGE WOMAN (MID 40'S)OFF AND ON FOR ABOUT 18 MONTHS. SHE IS GREAT IN BED, AND WHEN I JUST LIKED HER, IT WAS GREAT. THIS YEAR I BECAME A BOYFRIEND AND NOT A CUSTOMER. IT WAS OK FOR MOST OF THE YEAR, AS SHE DID NOT WORK VERY MUCH, SHE SPENT A LOT OF THE TIME IN CHINA WITH HER LITTLE BOY. BUT NOW SHE HAS STARTED TO WORK AGAIN. I MADE A VERY STUPID MISTAKE, I FELL IN LOVE WITH HER. SHE TELLS ME IT IS ONLY BUSINESS, BUT I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE. I SAID GOODBYE TO HER THIS WEEKEND. IT IS NOT HER FAULT, SHE HAS TO WORK TO SUPPORT HER SON AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS IN CHINA. SHE WARNED ME NOT TO LOVE HER, BUT TO NO AVAIL. WE HAVE A LOT OF FUN OUTSIDE HER WORLD, AND I WISH I COULD PUT UP WITH IT, BUT I CAN'T.

[MassageLover]

I love AMP Massage parlors & the author is right on the money. I'll pass on a site that lists them all & Massage Parlor Reviews:

http://www.asianmassage.net

[caizi]

Hi Missy: Keep up the postings.

[Mike Petrelli]

Great post, I follow your blogs here and at Cuntlet. You actually posted my secret to getting girls to see me outside of the office for free. I make them feel like a human being, where everywhere else they are considered garbage, in may eyes they see themselves as just a human being. I actually empower them and teach them about our cynical american world, where everyone is they same. You and I both know that is not really true but you can fake it and blend in with everyone else.

[Hobbyist]

Hey, Missy. I went back to your photo and from your body type, I see it now.
If you've spent enough time (or were even born) in the U.S., your genetic heritage will be almost impossible to discern from your writing (and sometimes speech) alone, in my experience.
Smokin' bod, BTW... =)

[massage]

Hi hobbyist. You say you are shocked to hear I am half asian? You have to remember I have friends who help me with the writing. I am half asian and half american, but my friends are all american. I record my posts and then my friends write them and then we talk about them and they may get "americanized" along the way.

There are a few I did all by myself.. maybe you can tell? I like to think they are just as good!

I do more typing on cuntlet and I just have one friend helping me with the writing there right now and he doesn't like to speak for me so most of that is just fixed language but what I said. I also have an IT guy who sets up the pathways for my posting and emails (proxies?) and also I have a list of friends I give ads to, even though most don't know I do it.

[Hobbyist]

I can certainly relate to what M says. And I'm floored to learn you're half Asian, Missy! You definitely put out a bitter/cynical vibe that I normally attribute to Caucasians.
Not judging, mind you - you've sure seen enough ugliness and hypocrisy for a few lifetimes.
Like M, I've been seeing a regular K-girl (outside) that I respect more than most women I know.
It IS true that many mongers are scumbags. Those with "yellow fever" tend to be closet pedophiles or controlling assholes.
And it is no secret that providers, like strippers, tend to have low self-esteem.
Now, filthy? I don't think so. Not any more than your average grossly overweight, self-absorbed, herpes-infected U.S. cow.
I do make a point to (French) kiss them, go down on them, and treat them with respect to show them how dirty I think they are.
In return, besides having to fight my ATF so that she'd take my money (she has more than me, but business IS slow for her these days, BTW), I get to "feel like a king" too, whenever I get to see her.
A Korean-Chinese girl that I once had a great time with, and saw described on a review site as a "45-year-old washed-up whore" just got married, and that made my day.
Massage girls are not crack whores...
And I realize that they aren't "rice queens" either -those would be out of my reach-, but to call them low-class would make me a damn hypocrite since I enjoy their society so much.
So thank God for them.
More people would benefit from reading you, Missy, and they should join the dialogue.

[Missy]

Relax honey... you sound like a kind heart. I would not be in this business if I didn't have a soft spot for most men.

However, if your friend is Korean-American I doubt she needs your cash badly. Oh sure pay her for her efforts and be as generous as makes sense, but don't think for a second she needs your last 20 so limit your gits to your entertainment funds. I hate to think of how likely it is she's only as available as your wallet permits, but that is the safer bet than thinking she needs your support.

On the flip side, even the most professional girls have been known to soften up for persistent guys. Remember the clue is the currency... she'll give away money before she'll give away sex.

Thanks for commenting. I hope you stick around.

[M]

Apologies for the tone of my previous comment. Feel free to delete it (if you haven't already). You see, I was feeling a little too close to Harvey. However in my case, I WOULD see my Korean friend outside the spa, even if there were NO sex involved.

I will be seeing her tomorrow, and will definitely be letting her know how much I appreciate her. It's the end of the month, and money is tight, but I will give her everything in my pocket because her business has been slumping.

Is the economy hurting your business these days?

[M]

Guess you got some of us scumbags nailed. I am married, with grown kids, and have a Korean-American massage girl I see once a week (I'll call her C). My wife has health problems, and C cares for a sickly mother, so C and I have bonded and become friends as well. Unlike Harvey, I talk to C daily on the phone. I scrimp and save wherever I can so I can be generous to her, while still taking care of my own family obligations. We have talked about no-sex lunch dates on her days off, but it's been hard to get together, as she lives with her family about 90 miles away when not in my area working.

Yes, I guess I am a scumbag, but my asian massage girl makes me feel like a king when I walk through the door. I need that in my life right now. I also try to repay the kindness I receive any way I can.